It's funny what nighttime does to our imaginations. Sometimes a thought enters our brains as we close our eyes and vivid images swirl around, touching our emotions. Those emotions can be comforting, exciting, or scary enough to keep us awake.
This has been happening for Matthew lately. This summer he'll turn 9. Not only will he one year away from double digits, but he'll be preparing for his next cardio MRI. Insert long sigh here.
And so, at night, Matt's mind begins racing and he thinks of his own mortality.
I wish I were the type of person that is fine letting him believe there's nothing to worry about. But I feel strongly that knowledge is power. I don't want him waking up from anesthesia and panicking when he sees tubes draining blood and fluids out of his chest. I want him to know that even though his heart condition is scary, lots of people love him and pray for him. We have open and honest conversations several nights a week.
I think the idea of this fundraiser has helped Matt feel a little more empowered. He can't do anything to heal himself, but at least he can jump some rope and help an organization that helps "kids with special hearts" (as quoted from the flyer the kids brought home from school). And I don't know anyone with more of a special heart than Matthew.
If you'd like to donate, please visit these links by February 15, 2013:
Matthew's page (Donation goal: $14)
Abby's page (Donation goal: $100)
Emma's page (Donation goal: $20)